Feb 28, 2005

transitioning again.

i am returning to work tomorrow. yes, that is right, the factory and i will once again be bashing heads. it has been determined that i have quite an expensive lifestyle, and unless i want to become a hermit and never leave the house, than it is absolutely neccessary that i have some sort of steady income. there are certain sacrifices that i will be making, for budgeting/saving purposes and such, but i need to have some sort of social life. the other change, in order to allow me to return to work, i have had to cut my school schedule down to part time. now, i will be a 12 hour sort of girl, rather than an 18 hour sort of girl. it should be interesting.

these are the things i am sacrificing, and than we will review the things that i am keeping. i know that you are curious to learn all of this information. wants that will be no more: buying any and all the cds that i want at the drop of the hat; eating out or take out nearly every night of the week (yes, i am going to attempt to cook more often), going out to drink (if my friends want to drink, than they can come over, because i can by nearly an intire 6 pack at the store for the price of one beer at a bar); the purchasing of magazines from borders or other book sellers (shelf price is rediculous); drinking starbucks at my every whim (i am going to budget a perdetermined amount for every month, deposit that onto a starbucks card, and once it is gone, it is gone. no more.); i will now only be paying for myself when i am out with my friends (this sounds harsh, but it has gotten out of hand. no more hand-outs, buy your own dinner, buy your own beer, buy your own coffee, and buy your own cigarettes. i am done.)

now for the keepers: the obvious needs will stay, essentials such as food (for the grocery only), paying the rent, untilities, and such. the following wants will stay: magazine subscriptions (rolling stone, spin, paste, and adventure, but that is all, the rest are all cut off). i will allow myself to purchase 2 cds a month (i am not really sure how this will work yet, i may just budget a certain amount and try to use half.com or something). the alotted money on the starbucks card. cigarettes (i am not currently in the state that allows for quiting, it will have to happen at another time). i will allow myself the occational social eating out (this will probably involve budgeting a certain amount too). that is all. i am done now. i am sorry that i had to share all of that with you, but i feel that now that it has been stated somewhere other than my mind, it will be easier to really make it happen. thank you. goodbye.

Feb 26, 2005

people of cleveland, you suck.

i am tired of the blogs all about political tiraids. maybe i am shallow, but i would much rather talk about the new lighter that came in the mail today. it is a fancy zippo type. silver with the newcastle label on the cover. johnson, i know that at least you can appreciate this. the rest of you may read and frown with disdain that i smoke at all. that is fine, but i am pretty excited about this new lighter. so excited that i have just written a blog all about it.

this evening, i cooked. somehow i get these fantastic roommates who allow me to pay for groceries in exchange for their cooking for the both of us. at OU, talya did it all. i ate it, then did the dishes, oh and i went to the grocery with her too. now, however, i dont have things quite so easy. we go to the grocery, molnar cooks, but now it is required that i at least watch her cook. she seems to think that by watching, i will learn, eventually become interested, and than before long, be cooking all on my own. we will see. than we eat, and keeping with old tradition, i do the dishes. somehow, it seemed much easier when talya cooked. she has this amazing ability to cook a full meal, dirting only 2 pots/pans/mixing bowls. molnar however, seems to dirty the entire kitchen. yikes. i cleaned up as she dirted, and let me tell you, the drying rack was full 4 times. it was out of control.

the wilco show was last night. i have mixed feelings about the whole thing. the show was great, wilco was outstanding. they surpassed my expectations. played all of my favorite songs. however, the venue was terrible and the crowd was even worse. seriously, what is the problem with people today. who would pay $36 to see a show, go, and then talk through the entire thing? is it not all about the music? the point is to go, listen, and sing and dance along if you are feeling so inclined. i can handle the obnoxious singer next to me, but i cannot tolerate everyone talking around me. it is no good when a true fan has to strain to hear the band. not acceptable. jeff tweedy was pissed off. thanks to all of those dumbass chatty cathy's, wilco will most likely never return to cleveland. it makes me so sad.

Feb 25, 2005

taking a stand.

talya has been bloging recently about sweatshops, fair trade and the like. well, i have some things to say. this issue does concern me, but i must say, i have done nothing to take a stand against it, wether it be boycotting, or writting letters. a fact that i am not proud of. i do try to stay away from those clothing companies that are big problems, but i like my life of comfort and i am not sure i am prepared to alter that.

it seems to me that starbucks is often a target of problems within the area of injustice towards their workers, coffee growers, etc. i feel like i need to stand up to support them in this case. dont get me wrong, i have several major issues with the starbucks coffee corporation, but as a whole, i feel that they are doing far better than most. in regard to fair trade, no not all of their coffees are certified, but you must understand what becoming fair trade certified involves. the process is quite lengthy and expensive. is this a good excuse for a company not becoming legitimately fair trade, no, but i think we all understand how the corporation likes to squeeze expenses down to saving the last penny.

i worked for starbucks for a year. to become a certified barista within this company, much learning is required. many people can get by, without learning a thing, but i actually payed attention in my starbucks experience class. of the baristas that worked and still work at store #2401, i still stand as one of the "coffee experts." i know it all, i drink it all, i can pick out a coffee even before sipping it. my intention here is not to brag, it is simply to inform you that i am well informed. that being said, starbucks is on the right track when it comes to the treatment of their coffee growers. though, all of their products are not fair trade, in all cases, they give back to the community in which their coffee is grown. they pay far more for their beans than what any other company would pay within those same regions. they determine pricing based on the cost of living, than provide compensation that allows the growers to live well above the poverty line. granted, in comparison to what starbucks actually sells their coffee for, to us drinkers all over the world, there is tremendous profit made, but they are paying their coffee growers enough money to put them into the upper-class bracket within their societies. outside of just taking care of their growers, starbucks provides for the communities in which these farms are located. the starbucks corporation has built and staffed hundreds of free clinics and schools for the people living in and around these communities. once these areas establish themselves, starbucks than recruits teachers and doctors to move into the communities on a permant basis, allowing them to relocate their doctors and teachers to other locations. now, dont even try to tell me that these are not all good things.

even within the U.S. starbucks does great things in raising funds for cheritable organizations and health organizations. given that starbucks is one of the biggest corporations in the world, i think that these things are quite impressive. no, they are not perfect, but i think that they are on the right track. my point, if you want to point your finger towards unjustice, starbucks is not where you should be looking.

Feb 21, 2005

a weekend of beauty.

it was amazing. the mountains, the snow, the quiet, the company, the music, and the skiing, they were all great. i have not laughed so much in a long long time. as if all that wasnt enough, i got to go to athens, saw talya, and walked through town. i love it when my non-college friends get to see what was once my life. oh how i miss athens. i got donkey and i had a yummy hot dog. it was good.

the quote of the weekend, "the pie aint workin'!" that has to be said in a panicked voice, with great desperation, followed by a, "colleen, help me, i cant get up!" yes, i taught the erins how to ski. it was helarious. they both did well though. i think that they were the most successful students i have had since i taught heather how to ski. actually, they did about a thousand times better than heather did. it was a success.

i got home yesterday at 3pm. we stopped at the house to pee, then we went to birds birthday party. it was a suprise party. she was suprised and she hated us for it. it was funny though. we got home at like 6... unloaded the car, unpacked, and then i had to take the blazer back to my parents house. the weather was aweful... snow, then pouring rain, then blizzarding snow. icy. let me just say, icy. not fun. then i came home and went to bed. i havent gone to sleep so early in a long long time. i was exhausted. it was a good exhausted though.

i think i might move to a mountain and become a ski bumb. my life will be nothing but skiing in the winter and hiking/camping in the summer. that would be beautiful.

Feb 17, 2005

TALYA!

i will be in athens on sunday! it is just a stop through on my way home from WV. i suspect it will be around um... noon. are you up for a quick hello, hug, and i love you? it would make me feel real good to see you.

yes, you heard me right. i am going to WV. skiing. oh how i love it. yummy. oh and i have a slipped disc too! isnt that nice? my roommate says i shouldnt ski with a slipped disc, but i said that i didnt care. it cant be any worse than skiing with 3 torn ligaments in my knee. no i dont think so. i am a bit stupid is think.

Feb 15, 2005

friend.

i often times find myself wondering why i am not the friend that i wish i was. does that make sense? some days, i look at my relationships and think i am doing okay. i am actually succeeding at being the friend that i want myself to be and that my friends are happy with. then there are the days that i realize that it has been months since i have talked to certain people that i count as my closest friends. not only does this disappoint me because i am missing out on what those friendships give me, the better person that they encourage me to be, but more than anything, i am saddened because i am really letting you down.

i dont know what happens that my life becomes so important that i dont stop and make time for the people that i care about. i am sorry that i am such a sucky friend. i have hopes of one day being better at it, but i fear that i will always find myself in this place. so, friend, please know that regardless of what my actions tell you, my intentions are good. i just suck. regardless of that, i do love you and i am sure, appreciate you more than you know.

Feb 13, 2005

you're killin' me smalls!

lyndsey... you are funny... i am talking laugh out loud funny. i am moving out of sarah's apartment on portage path and moving in to molnar's house. i share the hedge hog with molnar. that is all. understand?

i enjoy the gold coast. i have a pain in my neck. we are talking an intense pain. i cant bend to the right at all. it is no good. i am currently wearing an icy hot patch but it doesnt seem to be helping. at this point, i am not quite sure what to do.

the madness is over. as of yesterday, i am offically moved. i now have my own room here at jefferson. it is a beautiful thing. however, my new roommates dont seem to have the proper appreciation for the loft bed. they have both told me that they think it is time that i got a "big girl bed." i am not sure how to respond to this. the loft is my pride and joy. lyndsey, mae, talya, emily, come back to me so that i can feel good about myself again.

molnar got into grad school! this was friday's big news. the funny thing... her application wasnt even complete... she hadnt written her application essay. rather than sending her the expected letter saying that they couldnt process her application until the essay was turned in, she got the acceptance letter in the mail. this seems strange to me. does it seem strange to you? oh well, whatever. it is exciting to know that i will no longer be the only liberal attending the U of A. all those closed minded people... they are too much for me.

how does one respond to a roommate who eats all of the other roommates' food? now i am not saying that i am not all about the sharing. i love to share. the issue i have is when food or beer, or whatever, is finished without the permission of the owner, and than it isnt replaced. any words of wisdom here would be helpful. we are not exactly sure how to aproach the situation.

Feb 10, 2005

some clarification.

i thought that i had already explained this situation, but appantly, some of you (or at least one of you) readers are not understanding. the story of gomez... the hedge hog. i am partial owner of this little creature. the other partial owner is my friend molnar. when we purchased gomez, the agreed upon plan was that he would live with her on jefferson avenue. i am not sure why, but this seemed like the best idea. are you with me... shared hedge hog... living at molnars house... i live just a few blocks and several streets over. here is where it gets a little bit tricky. i am moving. my recently vacated home, where i lived with sarah, on portage path, is my residence no more. now, i am living with molnar, endres, vada (the cat), and gomez (the hedge hog) on jefferson avenue. therefore, there are no custody issues, because i didnt share the hedge hog with sarah, i shared it with molnar. sarah doesnt even like the hedge hog... quite frightedned of him actually. does this all make sense? lyndsey, are you with me?

the whole studying to much issue that i mentioned yesterday... i have come to a conclusion. compared to sarah, who is the one that spurred on this complex to begin with, i do study in excessive amounts. however that may be, i do not think that i study to much. in fact, i think that i study just the right amount. i have come to this decision after possibly the most stressful life of my college career comes to an end. i had a total of 3 papers and 3 midterms this week. they are all over now, and well, quite frankly, i kicked some ass. after just completing my final exam, i am confident in the fact that i wrote 3 excellent papers, and got either 100% or close to 100% on all of my midterms. therefore, i say, yes, i do study a lot, but the satisfaction that i am now feeling makes it all worth it. and sarah, we will see who does better when grades come. oh, if my freshman year self could see me now. what a wonder!

a funny: yesterday, i put my underware on inside out. yes, my life has become this dysfunctional. the sad thing is... it wasnt until the day was half over and i had already peed 3 times that i even noticed that they were inside out. yikes. before you know it, i will be putting the thong on backwards.

Feb 9, 2005

what about a hermit crab?

lyndsey, you have confused me. what are you saying about hermit crabs? i dont have a hermit crab. i dont even like hermit crabs. and note to you, mae moves far more than i do.

i think i drink to much coffee. how much is to much? whatever that limit is, i think that i have reached or rather, far surpassed it.

do i study to much? for the last 2 weeks, i have been waking up nearly every weekday morning at 5 am to go to starbucks and study. i know that this may seem a bit extreme, but it is my most productive time. plus, you remember the things i love, well it brings joy to my heart... these hours of starbucks early morning studying. not to mention the fact that my ability to productively study at night has declined. the only issue, however, is that i am not getting enough sleep. so i am cranky pants far more than i would like to be. the supplemental afternoon nap is a little bit helpful, but i think i may be becoming quite a mess. though my life may be falling apart, i am doing quite well in school. i wonder if success in my school work is worth loosing my sanity over.

hmm. i feel that there may be no good answer. nuts.

Feb 7, 2005

moving... again...

yes, you heard it right. i am moving. after all of the work that i put into my lovely apartment and now i have to leave it. the situation is this. i live with my friend. i care about her friendship and it has been my past experience that some people just cant live together... regardless of how much they love eachother. so, in hopes of salvaging the friendship, before it takes a turn for the worse, we have both agree that it would be best if i moved out. therefore, i will be making 1111 jefferson avenue my new home.

it has been decided that i will move upstairs into endres' room and endres will move downstairs into the office. originally, i was going to get the office, but she likes this plan better. i am all for it, because this way, i get a closet. i am all about closets. sad am i... yes. it will be okay though. i am just incredibly unexcited about moving all of my shit again. please, if you so desire, call me. i could use the support.

Feb 5, 2005

not pooping so much anymore...

i dont understand the concept of reading blogs, commenting on them, and then not writing one of your own. talya, can you explain this to me. seriously guys, what has happened to the blogging. there has been a severe drought recently.

gomez went on a long road trip today. he and i went to study at starbucks. it was great fun. everyone was so excited about him. than he got angry and crawled into his bag. than i couldnt get him to come out. so, i took him home. he had been to starbucks several times before, but this was his longest time away from home. he was extremely well behaved. he also only pooped once! what a wonder... maybe he is growing out of this childish habit. lyndsey... does herman still just lay around all day? i think that we got a hipper active hedgehog. he never sits still! i am not kidding... day and night... always moving. is there something wrong with gomez, or is there something wrong with herman?

i might be moving. sad. all of the work that i put into that apartment... the possibility of moving away just breaks my heart. there have been serious roommate issues. why does this always happen? i am told that some friends just cant live together. in this case, the only reassuring thing to me is that this time, it isnt me. lines have been crossed that never should have been. my moving out seems like the only feasable option. the only issue... i am not going to move back into my parent's house... regardless of how much i hate my living situation. i do however need a roommate. i cant afford to pay rent on an entire apartment. at this point the best possibility is moving in with molnar and endres. i am a bit apprehensive about that though. oh, and i would have to live in the office... where would the computer go, and where would my clothes go? i think that every room should be designed with a closet, even if it wasnt intended to be used as a bedroom. what are these architects thinking?

Feb 3, 2005

things i like.

i like black keyboards. i had never thought about it before, but sitting here just now, it occured to me. i much prefer the black keyboard to the traditional grayish one. dont ask me why, i just do.

i love newcastle brown ale. i was drinking one last night and suddenly i was struck by this amazing apprecation for the substance. i think that possibly, this is the best beer ever developed. really. you should look into it.

i like parliment cigarettes. i think that is it sad that i like cigarettes at all, but i cant deny it. these ones are great. if you have a similar vice, you should try this particular type out. i actually like camel turkish royals more, but i think that they will kill me faster, so i try to stay away. but if you are all about killing yourself, then these are definately the way to go.

i like gomez... my new hedgehog. he is super. i really like watching him run around in his big runny ball. it is funny cause, regardless of where we want him to be, he always goes back to the kitchen. what is it about the kitchen? hmm. i also really like it when he goes to sleep in my sweat shirt pocket. this is the cutest thing ever. it is also quite ammusing to me when he poops on erin. he poops on erin a lot, so the entertainment is almost continual.

i like going to bed early. mostly, i think i just like to sleep. it may not be so much about going to bed early. tying into that, i also like mornings... waking up before everyone else. the world is at such peace... it is a beautiful thing. i especially like waking up early and going to starbucks before it gets busy. this is the best time ever... just me, my coffee, and my thoughts. beautiful.

i love coffee. the best option is starbucks, but any sort will do. if you ever want to put a smile on my face, than this is the way. sadly, though, i have recently been having some milk problems, so i have to drink soy now. if you are looking for suggestions... triple tall soy latte. yummy.

i like you. who knows... i may even love you.

Feb 1, 2005

happy hoglet day!

we are getting our hedgehog today! that is right, call me a poser if you like, but i am doing it. we are driving to montpelier ohio at 1:30 this afternoon and picking the little guy up. then we are driving all the way home. it is oh so exciting! i can hardly stand it.

we built our own hedgehog home. isnt that nice. quite a bit of time and effort with lots of tender loving care was put into that home. all i have to say is, the thing better like it. especially because i spent 20 bucks on the materials. it actually wont be done until this weekend, so the hoglet has to live in the old hamster cage for a bit, but i think that will be just fine.

oh i wish that there was no school today. i would skip if i could, but i dont do that anymore. sigh. what ever happened to my irresponsible self? i have to go and study for a statistics quiz now. ick.